It is not that I want you to keep your thoughts and feelings quiet. It is that you need to get to the hospital. It is torture for us to have you tell us repeatedly that your life is unbearable, then to have you attempt suicide and leave the hospital before you are ready and continue telling us you are suicidal. There is nothing we can do but sit here and watch our friend self destruct. It tears at our hearts to give all the support we can and have our friend ignore it and continue on her path of self destruction. Our hands are tied here. We are captive because we don't know where you are. We can't come knocking on your door to make sure you are safe. We can only just sit here and watch. That is why suicidal posts are not allowed because there is absolutely nothing we can do but watch it happen.

Sweetheart, You need to get help. Life can be good but you need to make the decision to reach out in the real world and get the help that will enable you to see the options that you have available to you to make your life wonderful.
In Love and Light,
Carrie <font color="purple">