I am sorry to hear that this is a difficult time for you at the moment PianogirlPlays.

I can relate to the sentiment of wanting things to be nice and pleasant; I do too.

I guess the hard part for both you and I is when we come to the realisation that sometimes it just isn't.

In these cases I have to remind myself that I know who I am; and I am better than that; and you are better than that too.

You don't need to be perfect.

Nobody is perfect - I'm quite human and I make plenty of mistakes. The best I can do is ask myself what would I do differently if I ever found myself in the same situation again IF I had to make different choices.

Hang in there.