I find meditation really hard when I have lots of thoughts and feelings, it is too hard to not get sucked into them. Would it help to just go and be with your horse, even if you don't go for a ride.

I actually did a horse mindfulness weekend last year - I did the course with some other people (I didn't know them) and they were all eager to go and bond with some horses, but I wasn't in a good place in my head. I just stood on my own in the field and suddenly I became aware of heavy foot steps and this horse just came and rested his head on my shoulder - from feeling quite numb, I actually started to cry and we just stayed like that for a while and I hugged him - I felt less alone in that moment.

I think sometimes the most difficult feelings can be the biggest lessons for us and I hope you can work through this with your T, but take care of yourself while the feelings are so intense.

:hug; Soup