I guess I just need to vent. There have been a lot of things going on and I'm not happy with them. I don't expect or really need anyone to read this, but I want it out there somewhere for some sense of therapy since I don't have anyone to talk to about these things anymore.

My husband is going back to school, and quit his job in December, so I've been the only one working for the last five months. I know my husband is just trying to make things better for our family and for himself in the long run, but it's been really stressful for me being the only source of income and bills just keep piling up. My husband is, at times, very oblivious to important things like expired tags and missing insurance cards and the stupidest things that end up getting him into trouble with traffic tickets and stupid things like that. Things that could totally be avoidable. I've been putting off being angry and hurt for a long time and it's starting to get to me.

Back in December, right before he quit his job, he got a ticket because it was getting dark and he didn't have his lights on. Of all things. Then, while they had him pulled over, they asked for registration and proof of insurance, which he had never gotten from his dad, who had been letting us borrow the car he was driving at the time. So he got a ticket for no lights and no insurance, and had a court date. He missed the court date, and they put a warrant out for his arrest. We go to court, wait all day for him to be seen, then find out that thankfully he didn't get jail time, we paid a fine of $375, and his suspended license would be reinstated. Well, it never was. This was back in February that we went to court.

A couple weeks ago, he gets pulled over because the tags on our car were expired, and we found out his license was never reinstated. We thought it was a clerical error, but it wasn't, and he was supposed to go get it reinstated at the DMV, which he hadn't. So that is another $350 down the drain.

He hasn't gotten himself a job, even after I've begged him to get one to help out. He is enrolled in school, but he took forever to turn in a request from child care assistance but I suppose that's not his fault because they needed proof that he was going to be going to school. He has applied for financial aid, but he hasn't written up a petition to show that he's not going to blow it this time, which is necessary for him to received ANY financial aid, and we aren't going to be able to afford school for him AND our two kids on just my income.

Oh, and did I mention we're moving at the end of the month and don't have an extra $350 to spare for him not getting new tags for the car or making sure his license had been reinstated? Oh, and that the house we're moving to is in the next town over and is an extra $175 a month for rent? PLUS the $400 deposit to move in?

But at least we have a car we can sell to cover $600 of moving expenses, and my husband has a bunch of cards that he could be selling for a lot of money (even though he kind of isn't...) so...we should be able to get it together, right? Right???

I'm really stressing out about this. We have to fill out the application for the kids to go to school this fall by May 28, but in order to do that the request for childcare assistance has to go through, and I don't know how long that's going to take, IF we get approved.

I haven't been letting him or the kids know how much I've been stressing out, but I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone to talk to about it, because I have little to no friends and I don't want to stress out my husband, but at the same time I want him to be just as stressed as I am so that he'll get up and DO something about it instead of just...not. He says he's going to check on the status of our childcare application today, but...

I just want him to go back to work so we don't have to worry about money anymore. We were doing so well before he quit. I had been working at a nice new job for six months and making good money, and he had been working a lot of hours and hardly had time to be home, but at least we weren't worried about money. And now, the jobs he currently qualifies for are unobtainable because of his driving record. They'd be perfect jobs for him, nice 8 to 5 jobs with good pay and a company vehicle, but no, he can't apply because he's had a suspended license.

I know a lot of this just sounds like whining but I'm spent. I'm tired and stressed and just want to sleep for a week, but of course we can't afford me even being sick, never mind taking a vacation, haha. Ugh...

I'm just so tired...

If you read all of this, thanks, I guess. I don't really want advice or anything, because it's just going to make me stress out more. But thanks for reading if you got this far.