I understand it hun, I think. I have moments that seems like the real gets sucked out of reality. I feel disconnected, and objects seems to be fake.
I usually go "here we go again" and sit it out. It often happens when I'm hit with too much sensory stimuli, like walking into a busy grocery store with all the lights, colors, people. I just walk around in a daze till it fades away, or ground myself by picking up items and reading the labels.
It doesn't bother me anymore because it happens too often. The only times it does bother me is like when I'm driving going over a high bridge. The overhead girders produce a strobe affect which triggers it which triggers my anxiety because I'm going 70 mph which then leads to a panic attack which leads to depersonalizing which almost causes me to pass out. I have to cross the Mississippi bridge everyday sometimes. It's like 300 ft in the air and 1/4 mile long, usually by the end of it I'm a wreck, and it takes a mile to calm down, but the shock lasts hours.
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