Pinkhater: OUCH.

Don't worry too much about the lack of comments as opposed to the number of views; a lot of people just may not have much advice to give because they have never been in the situation where they lived in an area that condemned the very thing they are afraid they may very well be. It doesn't mean people don't care.

Your sexuality is, well, just that... your own. As UCMath pointed out, it's up to you to figure it out. Unluckily, you live in an area where it's terrifying to be who you are. I'm so sorry.

The only advice I really have is to stop beating yourself up! Berating yourself or living in a guilt->shame->desire->excitement->lust->guilt->shame cycle will only hurt you in the short and long term. Forgive yourself for not following along the societal norms, and be gentle with yourself when you question yourself. Pretend you are your own best friend, and when your inner voice starts beating you up, respond kindly and gently to yourself... talk to yourself the way you would talk to a friend who came to you for advice.

In Anthropology in the states, there is growing interest in Queer Theory. This theory proposes that only a very, very few people are entirely homosexual or entirely heterosexual; that the vast majority of people fall in the middle of the bell curve, and are bisexual to some extent or another. Maybe that will help you to come to terms with the fact that you fall somewhere in the middle; almost everyone does, it's just a matter of self acceptance and societal acceptance for us to realise it, or whether we let it out to play.

Hang in there. It's not easy, but nothing worth doing ever is; and being your own best friend will be the greatest start you can have.