Don't allow yourself to feed into "the next shoe is just going to drop" mentality. I know that is hard because I tend to do that myself. Try to catch yourself, and instead work on managing this challenge, you need to learn you "can" actually do that.

I work at it a lot, I still struggle, except that I have been slowly learning, it has not been easy for me, I still have bad days. However, as I have mentioned, I am still very much trapped in the trauma with this ongoing lawsuit that continues to keep it in the now. What is happening with me is "wrong" and what I want more than ever is to be able to TALK ABOUT JUST HOW WRONG IT IS.

I had a bad day Monday because my lawyer called and now the opposing attorney is being "nice" and that is because the opposing attorney now realizes that they do not have their own appraisal. It is only "being nice" in order to get whatever cooperation is needed so she can find a way to only "slam" me again. It's a GAME, and I have been seeing just how TOXIC it is for too many years now. It is WRONG and it is "abuse" with the right to "abuse" and when someone like me is telling the truth and suffering with PTSD, this GAME is actually INHUMANE.

One day when I was waiting to see my exlawyer, I picked up a pamphlet to read that talked about how the opposing side (especially if it is an insurance company) purposely prolongs the process with every intention of "wearing" the plaintiff (me) down so they will either give up or settle. They even present settlement offers around the holidays in hope the person will settle because they need money. It talked about how in a deposition they are very nice, yet they are only nice in "the game", they are not your friend, their intention is to get you comfortable so you might make a mistake. THAT IS WHAT ABUSERS DO.

Like I mentioned, I watched the behavior of this lawyer who "played so nice" with me in my deposition, she would not acknowledge me and her entire body language was telling me her only interest that day was to get away with not paying anything out at all. TRUTH is not what matters in this game.

However, the individuals that should really be held accountable because they were in fact NEGLIGENT are my neighbors. They KNEW their system was not working, they KNEW that meant their dog was gaining access to my property, and they did not FIX it by installing a new system until MOST of what I had that I worked so hard for was in fact DESTROYED OR DAMAGED. And they were told several times to contain their dogs, they were even told about the laws stating they have to do so too. IMHO, they are the ones that should have to pay for the damage, it was NOT an accident, and an insurance company should not have to pay for their NEGLIGENCE.