You know, I guess I never thought of it that way. I mean, in my mind, I would have loved to go back in time, and take my mom to the doctor before her cancer got so advanced there was nothing they could do... would I have saved her? Would they have gotten it all in time? I mean.... maybe she wouldn't have had cancer, but something else could have happened. She could have had another heart attack, which could have killed her instantly and we would have come home and seen her dead on the floor. I don't know if I would have been able to handle that anymore than I handled watching her die for 18 months. So... I guess, you are right, while it might have changed the "outcome" of the situation, destiny is destiny and maybe she was meant to go, so it wouldn't have changed anything in the end. I never thought about it this way until this post.
That was really hard to sit through and think about, but it really puts perspective on things. So you might change one thing, but if that person is destined to leave this earth, it could be a different way, and much more tragic than the first. Scary thought. In a way then, I am glad I could spend the time with her I did, and that she was able to go peacefully, and without pain. I couldn't imagine losing her tragically, so I guess I am glad it happened the way it all did.
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