I work part time. I have about two weeks of maternity leave left. I work days and my husband works doubles on weekends only. So we don't use a baby sitter or day care. That's how I want it anyway.
I can't remember a time in my life that I didn't feel like I do. I've always been an observer, an introvert. Only when I was 20 I got into alcohol and partying but even still, if I wasn't doing that is lay in bed, sleep, just feel hopeless and like I was going nowhere. I'm thankful for my husband and girls. they really saved me. Its just in my head I'm stuck. I have no reason to feel this way. I mean, even at 18 I had an abusive boyfriend, that lasted a few years but I feel like I'm over that and in a better place. But I still feel broken and empty some where inside. I've tried celexa, viibryd, and currently Zoloft. I began medication just at 24, last year. I never wanted to but with my family now I felt like I had to do something because otherwise id stay in Ned, didn't want to answer calls, go to work, make plans. I feel like If only _____ would happen (don't know what that'd be!) I'd be better. I can't figure it out