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Originally Posted by Ryan358
I'm 17, and all my life I've had struggles with my parents. Whenever I'm away from them, or observing them from a distance, I realize what amazing, nice people they are, and that they're just like me, but then as soon as they say something to me I'll turn my back (literally) and completely ignore them. Or if I do reply, it will either be a grunt or something nasty. I'm down in my room all the time because i just can't be around them, or talk to them... and I wish i knew why, or what to do to start opening up more.
Every night I get really sad, and feel this huge guilt like I've ruined their lives and I'm not who they thought i would be when I was younger. (edit).... All the pain I must have caused them....
I also have really weird habits around them (edit)..... Can't even eat around them either, I always have to be in another room. What is this a symptom of?
Lately, my mom also seems to think I'm autistic,... (edited)
Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated about any of this.
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Hi Ryan: Thanks for posting. Have you met with a counselor of any kind? Where did the thoughts about having ruined their lives come from? What was the setting where your mother shared with you her impression that you might be autistic? Do you feel a great deal of anxiety with other people (at school, work, church, etc) or is it just with them? If you're wondering what is wrong with you, then meeting with a qualified professional would be the first step to determine if it is something about you, your family dynamics or something else entirely. You're of age to seek out evaluation and treatment independently of your parents in most states, so you don't need to ask them if you don't feel comfortable doing so. Best of luck and hope you can get some help and clarity on this! Keep us all posted.