Yea, I'm really trying so hard to do just that. I have been trying to pick just one thing (even a simple and small thing) to get done each day. Sort of trying to build off that, but I'm not able to build it into much more.

I guess it's sort of like procrastination, but a good deal different. It doesn't feel like procrastination. I faintly remember what normal Procrastination felt like back when I was 22 and prior. This is far different. It's sort of like I actually can do things, but yet at the same time I can not.

My Damn mind is always in the recent past, distant past, or very near future, or distant future. It is never in the NOW where it needs to be. (I don't mean to say that future planning is not important. That is normal for a Human to do.) What is not normal is to sit looking at a wall for 2 hours ruminating over crap that may never happen or in regret of that in the past. I do that so much and so badly that the result is no room left to even remember very important matters.

I'm pretty sure my faculties of memory are there, but I have difficulty in recall of so many things (Names are the worst) because I honestly think my mind is so over populated with unproductive thinking that retention of important things is not being stored. Like a broken storage Hard drive in a computer.