I could leave my husband to be with women, lots and lots of women. But, I love my kids and I love my husband. Besides, if I left my husband, he would have a good case against me for custody of my children because, after all, I am a nutcase. And, I love being a nutcase. Where would I find women anyway? I am a stay at home mom who rarely goes anywhere. Shame on me for thinking such things. But, women appeal to me so much more than my husband appeals to me right now. I could leave him, but right now, I'd miss being with him. He is my world. How would I feel about the custody of my children if I were to be a single mom? I would maybe have to move in with my parents because I simply couldn't do it alone. I don't want to do it and I'm not capable of it. I can barely take care of them as it is because I am a self absorbed *****. Should I leave my husband? Should I fall in love and run away with a woman? Maybe the kids and I could move with her to Florida. Maybe we could start a new life. Or, is this just my 19th nervous breakdown (catch that reference? ). Don't worry, at least for now, I won't do it. Now pray for some freaky reason my husband doesn't read this.