Hey! You are not at all lazy or depressed. You are genuinely good lady. Looking at your work for the not forprofit organization and selflessly helping nature towards your neighborer, I can totally tell you this. Start believing in yourself. Stop being so sceptic. Just that constant taunts and unappreciated efforts might have exhausted you a little. No problem. Every morning spells new opportunity to do something positive in life. But moving out or taking out yourself away from people is definately an option. To wither out the negativity caused, try stepping out once a day. Explain them that such comments discourage you somewhere. Meet new people whenever possible. If these activities don't help, try mild, natural antidepressants. There are ayurvedic medicines like epic jatamansi by Prakruti JiyoFresh that come with no side-effects as such. Go ahead. Live your life to the fullest. And stop criticising yourself or thinking of moving out! All the best