I start to keep a journal after my Dad died. I was so full of these negative thoughts and pained things I needed to say but felt I had no one to say it too. A friend who had also lost a loved one to suicide recommended the idea to me, since it had helped her. At first all my entries where written when I was extremely sad and usually while I was crying. I have gotten to where I document all sorts of things now. I'm still trying to get used to keeping a journal and don't always write in it when I should. I carry it with me so if I need to, I can get my thoughts out, no matter where I am. I do find that writing it down does seem to help. I usually feel better just to get it out of my head.