I'm open to discussion. Ultimately I wanted to understand myself better in posting here. I did look into things like female autism and other mental ailments and personality disorders - but found none fit me as well. Short of NPD, but I have read being so open to having NPD mostly disqualifies you from it, as most people with NPD are (at least at first) unwilling to admit that as their "one true fault".

As I said in OP, I'm ready to admit I may just be different than the societal standard and there is no mental disorder behind it. Before others accused me of it, I didn't put much thought into how my behavior affected my life. I did see a youth psychiatrist as a preteen as well, and she did throw around the word 'personality disorder' but was hesitant to push it well I was so young. At the time I could not have cared about it less and stopped seeing her. So, though she may have not been correct since she did not want to properly diagnose me, the memory fuels my curiosities a little more.