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Originally Posted by Sandiegolove
Hey everyone! I am a young college student and i was just diagnosed with sever depression, anxiety, panic disorder, ADD, phobia of public and very love self-esteem. The last three years i have battled with all these disorders but instead of getting helped, i hid it all because at the time my parents didn't understand what was going on with me. A year ago i hit rock bottom, and my parents finally after years of silent calls for help they realized something was wrong. Unfortunately it was to late, i was at my breaking point and at that point i was ready to take my own life. Thank god for my mother, i owe my life to her, the night i was going to take my life she realized something was wrong and didn't leave my side that whole day and even slept with me and continued to feed my mind with good things. After that day my mom got me into see a doctor and i started to get help.
I am 20 years old and right now my life is gone, i have no friends, i have no actives, i barley leave my house...this is not the life of a young 20 year old women. i need help and support. I need someone to tell me life is going to be okay and I'm going to live out my dream of being a wife and mommy. Please help me and give me advice and let me know what works for you. I am such a loving person and i have completely lost who i am and I'm so broken.
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Hey, I'm pretty much going through the same things that you're going through right now. I'm 19, in college, and feeling like I'm not a normal college girl. It definitely hurts... a lot.
Does your school have free counseling services? I'm using my school's psychological center right now and my current therapist is the best I've had thus far.
I hate when people tell me to think positive, recite affirmations, or do any of that stuff, so I'm not going to recommend that. However, it will be okay. Even when you're depressed or feeling low, it doesn't last forever. Sometimes, the opposite side of the depression spectrum isn't "amazing"... sometimes, it's just contentment. Sadness passes. Just keep that in mind.
People always say to imagine yourself as a child and imagine yourself comforting the child you used to be. I do that, but instead, I imagine the future version of me comforting myself now. I imagine an older version of me who has a husband and a nice job (and two dogs!) and I imagine her telling 19 year old me that everything will work out eventually and that I just have to be patient. I imagine her tutting at how upset I am, as she knows it'll all be fine in the future.
It usually makes me cry, but in a good way. I hope you feel better.