Just so ya know.... I haven't heard a word, I offered to drive his car, he said "he would think about it" I don't think he is going to let me know either way. I AM SUCH AN IDIOT! God, I feel like he must think I am really desperate or something!

Before when I used to feel rejected by him, I would go back to my ex-husband at least I broke that pattern. There is something about my ex that just sucks the life out of me (I often wondered; how does he do that to me?)

I think I am better off alone... But still confused... Still get pressure from the ex-husband though, but the more he pushes, the more it pushes me away (don't know if that is a good thing, but just can't bring myself to be with him anymore).