HiChris I am 50 and suffer from similar at age three.It makes it hard to trust people but it does get better. I felt the same way about my mum that she didnt protect me and she changed the subject when i tried to talk about it. As long as you are a good mum and have empathyfor others i think thats part of healing too. lotsof (((hugs))) to you and I hopeyou benefit coming to PC(Psych Central) luv Jjulia It may feel like this for awhile.