I am, and have always been a lesbian. I am (non-legally) married to a fantasticwoman i truly feel love for. We're wonderful together.

Except lately I've cheated on her twice with two different men. Both men are highly attracted to me and desire relationships. I haven't been caught yet, but i know its probably inevitable.

What the heck am i doing? I do not want to destroy my marriage with my wife. I really dont! But its exactly what I'm working on? I don't understand my actions .

Do any of you?