hI, i UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL. My situation is tedious too but tonight I really goofed when I tried to put my daughter in her stander at 11:00 pm-we usually stay up late and she is 3 with a past history of meningitis and seizures but recently the seizures are gone due to a stem cell treatment we got. I am recently overwhelmed and racked with guilt for not putting her in the stander days ago-I tend to be obsessive compulsive because I think I am helping her and this time my brain really snapped and I wasnt thinking properly and when I put her in the stander she fell backward and thank God she didnt hit her head on the hard floor. But I'm so shaken by this incident. I recently stopped taking Prozac and have anxiety and now I see its clouded my mind so I cant think straight and I have lost confidence in being able to take care of my daughter Kyla. I'm so depressed right now-I need a live in aid to keep me sane and to help me organize her therapy. I'm 44 and kind of recently felt burned out and like Im in a mid life crisis. I have a husband with heart problems and were seperated and at times I overwhelmed living with my 75 year old father and stroked mother. I'm definitely thinking of going back to my shrink tomorrow for more pills and Im not really sure if this is the right answer solely. I wont have any money to really hire a good live in aid until possibly a month from now. I hope I can hold on. My daughter is 32 lbs and its hard getting her into and out of the car seat without her getting apprehensive. I fear recently that I could drop her in the parking lot. She doesnt walk and I feel Im not the best mom because of my emotional problems right now. I just need a break to recuperate. Should I not go to the park and not take her anywhere for a while. We have a slew of therapist who come in and they can be depressing and annoying too. Im almost brain washed from other therapist to be this robot therapy mom or else my child will never walk. I also am alife insurance agent who needs to finish ce credits for recertification by the 30th so Im under so much pressure. Anyone with some advice to help me with this load of guilt and feelings of worthlessness. By the way I ran out of Prozac and was not able to keep my shrink appointment because I had so much family stress that day.