Another member kindly replied to an earlier thread of mine by saying :- When I was psychotic I did all kinds of terrible things. Things the real me would never even consider doing. I pray that my wrong doings will be forgiven but I understand if they aren't.

I mentioned that during psychosis I did things that were totally against my principles and high moral values. That especially if I heard voices or had panic attacks then I often could not control my impulses and I would do something that was wrongful eg not causing physical harm but I would send texts to friends at 4am with cries for help and lots of things that would cause distress to others.*

People I know have said about me that this past year they do not recognise the person I have become because of my totally uncharacteristic behavior. I have replied that when I have been very unwell (psychotic - hallucinations, anxiety - panic attacks) that I am not thinking rationally and what I think and do while psychotic is not "the real me". But they dont understand.*

Do you ever look back at what you have said or done when psychotic and said "that is not the real me" ? Or am I and the other member wrong and it is rhe real person ? Do you feel the same ?

Have you said the exact same words to people ( its not the real me) but they dont understand ?*

God bless you for reading even if you dont reply.