i am so ridiculously terrified of people throwing up. either me or other people: i cant even see it in movies or anything. every day i am on guard for nauseated people or situations where i or other people may become nauseated. i've always been really afraid of it, but in the past 8 months to year it's been unimaginably worse than ever. it's horrible. the fear itself often makes me dizzy and nauseated, and i've had 4 panic attacks in the past year that were triggered by nausea [though upping my dose of prozac, taking waaaay too many benadryl, and taking another drug too soon after the benadryl incident--not all at once--certainly did not improve the situation]. im sorry if im not making sense, but im at my wits end here. it's very difficult for me to eat, especially at restaurants, or already prepared foods, because im so afraid that they'll give me food poisoning. i wish i could try meds but i'd be so afraid that they'd make me throw up or give me panic attacks, that they WOULD give me panic attacks. the fear of the panic attacks is almost as bad as the cause. theres not really a purpose for me posting this, but it's 3:35 am, so that's my excuse.