(Don't know if the trigger icon is necessary, but thought I'd better use it just in case.)

I've posted before about deliberately looking/reading things that trigger me, and I'm having a problem with it at the moment. At a forum I visit, one of my friends there has started a topic about profiling school shooters...I wish he hadn't, since he knows perfectly well my issues with this, but maybe he thinks I have enough sense not to read it.

He's wrong. I opened the thread, and although I closed it again quickly because it made me feel anxious I'm having a hard time stopping myself from going back to it. Can someone please remind me why reading it would be a bad idea? (I know the easy answer is to not visit the site again until the post has been deleted, but I'd hate to avoid an entire site just for one post. It isn't the first time something like this has happened, it won't be the last, and I don't want to have to run away each time...it makes me feel weak, especially considering my involvement with the original event was minimal at best. )