Christina, I'm so sorry you are struggling right now. Please take care of yourself, even if it means having to go IP again. Kudos to you for recognizing you are in a bad place. I've known so many in your position who swore they were "fine."

Cakeladie, I'm concerned that you were staring ahead and unresponsive when your husband found you. Did you hit your head? Could you have a concussion? Or is it possible you had a seizure?