I've hit rock bottom again and started smoking again after 2.5 years.

Its sad because I've started smoking a pack a day almost, and I never really was a smoker to begin with. I guess my stress and anxiety levels hit an all time high, seeing as nothing ever goes my way in life. My depression is at the point where I don't even care that I'm slowly killing my self, sometimes I won't even realize I just chain smoked like half a pack.

I guess this my form of self harm. T-T