Hi Lauren. Welcome to Psych Central (PC). I am sorry you are have challenges in your relationship. It seems like you need more than just advice which I am not sure what to give anyway. Relationships always have the good times and the uncertainty of them ending.

A therapist that specializes in your area of challenge can be a help also. Possibly a psychiatrist to confirm diagnosis and prescribe meds that can stabilize your emotions so they are not keeping you up at night.

Many people who are actively involved in Psych Central find it helps take them out of their own problems to develop empathy for others. And their problems though still there are more manageable. There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central. http://forums.psychcentral.com

Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.