yeah I have bdd too. and it really freaks me out. and looks as a woman are very important to me especially since i was molested and mostly praised on looks alone growing up. but i was also bullied for my size so. when i feel certain ways inside it shows on my face, body and everywhere visible. and when i am with a guy... when i feel bad i look bad and want to run away intantly because i feel like they won't like me unless they see me as "hot" or "pretty".. so yeah