Quick run-down...

Met my first bf when I was 15(first saw him when I was 14). We started dating right before I turned 16. About a month after our one year anniversary, he moved, and I haven't seen him since...(which was last year) We broke up officially in August/September last year.

Problem is, he still wants to be with me. I'm not so sure...but it's not because he was a bad guy. In fact, he was great and I have nothing bad to say about him. Its just that, as the months rolled by with us being away from each other(but still having regular contact with one another) I think I want more from a relationship and from a guy, but I dunno. Like, Im not waiting for this perfect prince charming, who will be my soulmate, make me feel complete and whole...thats silly. But I want someone who I can connect with more. Someone whom I can have deeper conversations with, more things in common with, but still someone who is sweet, loving and faithful(like my ex.) Problem is, I worry if im chasing this unrealistic dream guy...like, maybe Im asking for too much??

I grew up seeing my mom having many failed relationships, and im scared to end up the same way. My ex was very good to me, and im scared I wont find another nice guy like that(even tho logically, I know there are good guys out there...)

Im sitting here on my 18th birthday, crying because im telling my ex how I feel at the moment, and of course, he's hurt...I feel like crap. What should I do??? I thought he'd be over me by now, having not seen me for one year, but...

Advice? ;(