Sorry you are crying on your 18th birthday. Do you have a therapist? Why you are really crying is a great thing to bring up with a therapist.

You have one young man that still wants to be with you. That can mean he really likes you and you and he are a good match
OR
He is still clinging to a relationship that is over.
OR
you fill in the blank

What about lets keep in touch but date other people because we live so far apart?

Still think a therapist might find more than the surface tells.

Love,
Allan