Hi Wookiegoldfur. I'm sorry you're in so much turmoil. I read some of your other posts and it sounds like you have alot going on. You'd said you had an appointment with a neurologist; did your tests turn up anything?

Please reconsider seeing a professional. You don't have to disclose everything from day one, or ever, for that matter. You can start by saying that you have trust issues. Most therapists are used to dealing with all kinds of issues. Trust can be built over time. I, too, have trust issues and it was so amazing when I found a T and PDoc that I could fully disclose to. I just think that it would be helpful for you to have a diagnosis and supportive treatment. A counselor can help you find your way; to be the best you that you can be.

Take care.