Thank you guys for the warm welcoming

@jde63, It is hard to separate. I expect something romantic, on the other hand I don't want to lose the person completely because she could be a fantastic friend as well because I don't have that many friends or even at all that understand me the way she does.
It is hard, because I yearn for intimacy and romance and it is frustrating as hell to learn that the girl I'm so emotionally invested with is not a person to engage with romantically.

btw I try to bring this up with my therapist everytime but it kinda either comes up in the end of the session or I just can't get myself to talk about this in the middle of the session.. meh.