hey there

i also have a morbid fear of throwing up and i've been dealing with it for several years now.

i've basically found that most therapists don't know how to deal with such a phobia and provide little help, but that doesn't stop me from trying!!!

i too refuse to take certain meds because of the side effects (i've tried some anti-depressants and they DO Make me feel sick, so they're out...it isn't worth the risk for me)
i HAVE had good luck with taking benzos such as klonopin and xanax. they don't make you feel sick at all.

there is a forum, http://www.emetonline.co.uk/ where there are TONS of people like us and i used to go there all the time, but for ME (not saying it will be the same for YOU) i got ideas of new things to worry and obsess about...so just be careful.
initially though, just knowing you aren't alone is SO helpful.

PM me if you'd like to talk about anything else.

-elizabeth