Thank you everyone for suggestions. It really puts me in good mood.
I am still in great trouble. YouTube is helping me alot. there are many relaxing sounds available there that actually makes you feel better. Especially nature sounds like waves, rain and blowing wind etc are amazingly good. I have checked and nobody here is ready to give me these meds without proscription. I don't want to say about the crappy situation of doctors abilities here and I don't want to spoil my money on them. Just because of this case, I applied for leave to go to my country and get proper help. But for two months, I have to be strong and survive. Meanwhile, if any of you guys could suggest me some good literature related to OCD, I will be really thankful. I really wanna know myself why exactly a brain makes so much trouble. Thank You. You guys are really great.