It's been a long time since I've posted.

I'm hurting and tired and so want to quit. My therapist wants me to call my psychiatrist but I don't think I'm that bad. Plus I know I haven't been consistent with my meds during the last few months so I figure I should give that a try first. I just finished 54 TMS sessions. They were hell for a lot of reasons not the least of which due to my very high motor threshold the doc had to crank my powers way up. He was always apologetic about it.

I'm not rally looking for any responses just trying not to isolate and trying to stop looking at unhealthy websites.

I'm just so sad and such a waste.