I feel so badly for you and realize you must feel so abandoned and rejected by our Pdoc, the one person you should be able to rely on for help and support. I had a similar experience over the last month when I was feeling like my T trying to push me out (you are not as depressed as you think...you don't do what I recommend) and he gave me a "tentative" date for my next appointment. I sort of panicked and sent an email saying I wanted to quit, that is jump before I am pushed, and he basically said ok, take care!!! Man, talk about abandonment, one of my biggest issues. I was devastated and hated him to my core. But being bipolar....I changed my mind a few days later and asked if he would continue to see me. He said he has a line of people waiting for appointments and therefore has no openings for the foreseeable future...Is anyone really THAT busy? I don't want to start over with someone new because I find Therapy to be excruciatingly hard. So, the one person who knew I have abandonment issues (esp. where men are concerned) dumped me like a rotten tomato. It is devastating be treating poorly by people we PAY to help us. I hope you find someone more sympathetic soon and get your pharmacy issue straightened out. ITs not as though we are not already in mental and emotional anguish. SHEESH! Hugs to you...