I'm sorry you are struggling so with the ED and depression. Sometimes depression is anger turned inward as part of it. It also has to do with our chemistry. Have you thought of posting in the eating disorder forum here? It's another option, may get more replies. I think you may need to get help for the ED other than you have already. Seems you aren't getting supported or helped very much. I had an eating disorder for many many years and know the feelings of hopelessness that go with it. I hope you will get some good replies here. All the best to you.