I've had anxiety and depression most of my life, but I've been going through a rough bout of it for the past 2 months. For the most part, my friends have been supportive and patient but lately I feel like they are getting frustrated with me. There are certain places and things I'm not comfortable doing right now and I've had to say no to a few things that they've asked of me. I try and make as much effort as possible to stay in touch and even meet for a quick lunch, etc. as that's really all I'm comfortable with right now. Recently, one of my friends sort've chewed me out for "pushing her away" and said if she doesn't see any growth or change in me, she won't be checking in as much. My closest friend seems to be a little upset with me because she asked me to do something that requires a 4 week commitment, and I told her honestly that it wasn't a good idea for me right now. I've always hated when people were mad/disappointed in me and I find myself fearing that I will lose everyone over this. All I want is support and someone to understand, but sometimes it seems like I'm inconveniencing everyone... I'm taking steps that I need to get better and that includes learning how to say no sometimes. Does anyone have any advice on how I can stop blaming myself for how they are reacting to my anxiety/depression? What can I do to show them that I'm trying as hard as I can to get better?