Hi,

Sorry you are suffering. How is your recovery from drugs and alcohol coming along? For me, sobriety comes first. Psych meds and therapy and anything related to bipolar is basically pointless to me if I'm completely 100% clean and sober. Almost all the meds say "Do not drink alcohol when taking this medicine" does not mean it's always dangerous it usually means the 18,000 mg of a depressant called Ethanol in every drink changes the meds effectiveness.

Do you have means to go Inpatient Treatment? And I do not mean 72 hours of stabilization. For me, full on residential treatment for 6 weeks was key.

Good luck,

moogs