I hate the word crazy. Nobody who understands bipolar thinks you are crazy, they think you are having an episode and they care and want you to feel better. That whole "crazy" thing has so much negativity attached and this is not something you've done wrong and should have negativity attached to it. It is what it is (and what it is SUCKS) but it's the illness it isn't you. I'm not sure I'm saying this well. My mind is in 2 places and my cat is pestering me for something. I'm actually going off on weird tangents and erasing them. So before I do that again, I'll just say it's a nasty, mean disease but it doesn't make you crazy.