Going to see my therapist in an hour, brief thoughts update;
Typically I'd be depressed because things didn't go well with the girl, I'd get the cruelest despair feelings but now, I mean I get all upset when I think about her and the fact it doesn't go the way I'd hoped for, really upset.. she's freaking lovely and adorable and .. yeah.. but I get fired up by other stimulus around me, ideas and thoughts and I just... feel fine relatively to how I guess I should be feeling.

What I was doing in last days is getting myself surrounded with friends and stuff, and I barely even bothered telling them how bad I feel about the girl and how it affects me, because I realize I don't feel that way when I'm with people or doing stuff, I only begin to feel like that when I'm alone and I'm kinda forced to think about her.

Uhh ... All I'm thinking is what I'm gonna do next like right here right now, not girl-wise. or actually girl-wise too. HALLELUJAH?!#$

I just hope I won't forget sharing my therapist the important things I wanted to share.