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Others are "allowed" to live their own lives/go away from me and it doesn't mean they are taking part of me with them. I cannot be "divided" that way, I will stay together. I don't need to either panic or protest/get angry.

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But...."Stay together"? without somebody else there is no me...its the weirdest thing...there is no me...maybe that is why I freak so much when someone leaves. I hate being alone, and except for kickboxing, anything important I've ever done was for someone else or to please someone else, to get attention in a way...got a whole %#@&#! masters degree to impress a boyfriend...*sigh* and now I dont even know if Ilike men...see what I mean..I cant even pick a sexual orientation..there is no ME. ugh.

Borderlineis so not fun.