Welcome to Psych Central (PC) silversurfer. I am sorry to hear you have been suffering from memories of your past. Everyone on this site is a volunteer, not a trained therapist. If you are looking for a therapist there are many other resources available to you to help locate a therapist.

Not knowing your past, I cannot judge nor do I want to. Some people here discover after year of therapy they have been a victim of abuse. No one should have to live through that. Some people at PC will find a therapist will help them sort out the roots of their life. For me, childhood episodes waned in influence to the degree I released them and let go of the anger, hope for atonement from abuser, and urge for retribution. Letting go of these does not mean what you endured was right, it only means you finally decide to go on with your life and not be weighed down by these things anymore.

Many people find compassionate, caring people here at PC. Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

There are articles that go into more detail about coping
Psych Central - Search results for Surviving abuse

You are welcome to be an active member here at PC.