I've always been pro-choice, even helped a girlfriend get an abortion back in my college days. She has experienced emotional pain because of that, and we have not been in contact for years, but I feel she still blames me somehow for being the "helper" in this. Also, her parents learned of it, and they also looked on me with disdain. It was her decision, but she has had lifelong issues because of it.
You engaged in a sexual relationship very early in the relationship. What were you thinking would happen? I'm not going to sympathize with you or pat you on the back and say all will be well now. You created another human being by your indiscretion. Then you ended that life. I hope you've learned to be more responsible in your relationships with men, at the very least.