On weight:

I have also gained quite a bit of weight but, on the contrary to both of you, I have been eating unhealthy foods. I am eating unhealthier than I have ever eaten and I have no explanation for it other than giving into cravings. It really bothers my husband and I don't blame him. I am between 1 and 2 sizes larger than my profile pic and I was already big then. It is pitiful.

On music:

My mom is being a total control freak. Sarah, you always have delusions when you are very manic. Can you not see that? She went on about how I was to go to bed with no music. She assured me that nothing bad would happen if I go to sleep with no music. I asked if she felt that way about instrumental music and she said any music is unhealthy for me right now. I can't tell her that music is poisonous, that now that I understand the truth I could never go to sleep without it. Something bad would happen; I would at least fall back into severe depression. Music is my life. My seven year old asked me if one of the songs I listen to is evil and if she will be in trouble that it is stuck in her head. I realize that is bad of me but I still felt anger. I HAD to hear that song and it was nearly impossible to replace it with the beatles. My mom explained to me that is horrible, irresponsible and if my problems are spilling into my children that is serious. She wants to come with me to my pdoc appointment but at the same time she blames his medication changes on my state of mind. What will she even tell him? That I have an unhealthy attachment to music. It's not unhealthy and lots of people have powerful connections to music. There is nothing new there. I feel frustrated.