Hi Jinzing, welcome to the forums. I'm glad you found us.

I completely understand why you feel the way you do about AA. I felt the same way. I believe in God, nut I rarely attend church, it's just not a part of my life. And when I strated looing into AA it seemed to me that the whole program revolved around God. That pushed me away at first. But I forced myself to attend a few meetings. Then thins got real bad for me, and I ended up in a recovery house, twice. Because being the thick headed *** that I am, I didn't get it the first time around.

Part of being in recovery was attending regular AA meetings. And there were people there that believed that they were staying sober because God was in there lives. But there were even more that didn't believe in God at all, that just believed in the concept of the program. The concept is simple. Turning your life over to "something" greater than yourself. And you get to decide what that something is. It doesn't have to be God. It wasn't for me. I just simply believed that there was a power at work out there that helped guide me thru the process of getting sober. I do believe in the twelve steps of AA. They are hard to work. I believe that you need a sponser who has been successful in the program who will stick by you, help you thru the tough times. It helps to share your story with others. If you go to enough meetings, you'll hear something that will help you almost every single time.

Don't get me wrong Jinzing, AA isn't for everyone. Some just have to take another path. But it's helped an awful lot of people. I don't think I'd be here today if it wasn't for AA. And you don't have to believe in God, sobriety just has to be the most important thing to you. That's a big sacrifice, but it's worth it.

Take care,
Greg