Can you tell us more? Life can get any and everyone down. It may be a thousand little things or one or two big things but it's probably not as insurmountable of a problem as it seems now. Depression closes off your worldview, it only lets you see the absolute worst in, life in yourself, in anyone and anything that is around you at the time. For me it sometimes rolls in and out gradually like a fog or it may literally jerk you awake in the middle of the night. I feel like one of the most insidious aspects of it for me is that it says terrible things to me in a soft, soothing voice.