Today was good! Caught two fish but had a good time. In the morning I'm going to another lake.

I got upset and this is obviously not a delusion. The fact that my step dad is bossing her around and thinking that she is stupid. She's so nice and just wants everyone to be happy. Very smart. Became a nurse and then finished law school. Just the way I observed with my dad is that my step dad is just being with her for someone younger later and will leave her as soon as he can gets Canadian citizenship.

I could have banned him from Canada forever if my mom manipulate me with my lack of knowledge about stuff like that.

She says that she is ok with him doing that. Kicked in the chest with a steel toed boot knowing she has a heart condition and more that they are not telling me.. She used to be in control. Now she has completely no control.

@Chicken, yes. I smoked crack cocaine in a mental hospital. Lel just on the side side while getting better. I always liked when the cops were after me because it gave a good anxiety. I knew I wasn't going to get high from coke either because it's like the same as ritalin in my experience.

Vyvanse is ok.. Still can't focus much. .. Then my mom gave me two Concertas and it's like 5 times better.

My step dad started driving when my mom tried to close the door. I'm sure that's a clear sign that he doesn't want her. Like complete disrespect. "used to be suicidal on the NRT".

No it was probably the guilt of what you did by destroying my family eating away at you but honestly idk.