No way I am normal. I'm like a 10 yr. old in a woman's body. Something is very wrong and I need meds again. Tried to stay off. Had gigantic panic attack on airplane on Mother's Day, have not been the same since. Cry every 5 minutes and have hot flashes but can it just be menopause? I've been sad since the age of 10 and I'm now 49. This panic attack was the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my LIFE and it was embarassing.
I am negative and turn everyone off. I don't see how anyone is happy, I am miserable but don't know how to change. I'm so used to misery that trying to be happy just feels weird.
I have chased everyone away with my problems. I want to be dead. I really do.