I did feel calmer and more positive for a bit. It had pretty much killed the urges, it was giving me some sleep and I was eating again. I've been feeling the mania fighting through it for a few days now though.

God only knows what's happened today. It's been a terrible experience. I'm feeling calmer now. The racing thoughts at work were unbearable. I just had to leave the job half finished. I think I've lost that customer now.

I think my GP is probably just covering himself. He was very kind and he listened to me. I broke down on the phone. That's the first time I've done that with anyone I've dealt with over all of this in a year and a half. I think there will be more of that tomorrow. I just need to let it all out.