I know that everyone is busy and they have their own lives, but sometimes I just want to talk to someone. I know they don't want to hear about me and that I'm just taking up their time, but still I do try sometimes and I know I shouldn't.

I know that if I call my Mom that she'll just hang up on me as soon as I say, "Hi Mom, it's me," and I'll feel worse after trying to talk to her than I did before. My brother and my grandma have caller ID, so they won't even answer the phone.

I can't talk to or socialize with anyone in town because I'm not Christian. Most people will cross the street rather than pass me on the sidewalk. A lot of the businesses won't let me on the premises, and a couple of people have even shot at me while I was working so there's no hope for talking to anyone there.

I tried getting a therapist because then I would be able to pay someone to talk to me for an hour every other week, but they always made me feel worse. They'd claim that I was under Satanic attack, or that the government was brain washing me, and always that if I'd just go to church I'd feel better.

I tried going to church a long time ago simply as a cultural event because I wanted to be around other people. I was treated like a leper because no one wants to be around a woman who has more education than they do, especially one who is unapologetic about working for the Federal Government.

I tried an online dating site because I thought that way I could connect with people with similar beliefs. I came up with zero matches within 100 miles of my home.

How do you control the urge to talk to other people?